this is it

this is my blog and i cant rant whatever i want to.
this blog is supposed to share my happy moments.
not the bitter side of me.

somehow i find myself writing lots n lots of emo posts. which is so not healthy.
maybe its because whenever i feel so happy i would be too busy being happy that i dont find the need to sit down in front of my lappie and start talking bout happy things! cuz i can do much more fun things rather than sitting quietly and typing.

as for today i am going through the same exact feeling.

God is fair.

fair the sense that i had lotsa of happy moments ever since 5weeks ago when i landed in the land of the roos but also had my share of days when i feel so sad being here.

fair in the sense that i make lots of new and great friends but sadly, i think i am losing one or maybe some of people i used to adore.

fair in the sense that i am always surrounded by great people that make me feel so special and that my presence matters to them but at time, even when i am surrounded by people i felt that i am all alone.

i am not trying to sell some self pity here.

i am not going to go around and suck it all up just cuz some stupid idioms said that " when life gives u lemon, u make lemonade out of it".

i want to. but i think i had enough of lemonade.
i am refusing the lemon now.

thank you for all the juice and the sourness that u have given me.

this is it.

i need some strawberries. or anything sweet.

playing with emotions

i think im emotionally comlicated person.

one minute i was happily studying and revising my japanese.

the next minute, i am all sad and moody.

as i sit here, in from of my laptop who proably hates me too cuz it keeps misbehaving and restart and hang whenever it feels like doing so, im SAD.

ask me why and i really cant answer that.

i tried hard to catch up with my feelings and try to give myself a good solid reason so that i dont feel so dumb for emo-ing here.

Q : What cause Yvonne to be sad?
a) home sick.
b) food sick.
c) love sick.
d) dont know.

A : d) dont know.

i really dont know. *major sigh

ok. i feel really stupid now.

japanese is not as simple as konichiwa.

konichiwa!
hajimemashite!
watashiwa e bon des su.
mackuri dai ga ku no ni nen sei ga se i.
tsumimase, anata ai watashiwa blog des ka?

i wrote a paragraph of crap in japanese. haha!
well if u really wana know what i wrote go google them! haha! for the record, im writing those based on my limited understanding of japanese and my romaji totally kenot pakai wan! so pls dont come and spam me if i write it wrongly or watever la!

ah.....i cant believe that i am actually taking japanese as my elective unit!
i find it fun! like u can go on and on with konichiwa n stuffs like that for real!
i mean taking the unit certainly allows me to harass my friends with my super shallow knowledge of japanese! haha! *this will be fun! =p

anyway its been a crazy week here cuz i have been playing and doing tooo much of groceries! speaking of which i really think all these walking around finding for cheaper stuffs is turning me into an aunty la. =( but what choice do i have? *sobs....FYI, we have roughly 300aud per month to survival as in food,phone & other essential stuffs. ITS NOT ENOUGH! *SOBS

well gotta stop writing now cuz i have to practice my japanese. flunked my quiz today so have to work extra harder for the next quiz! =(

nah..some pics of me la..just in case u miss me. if u dont, there r no obligations to scroll down n see them. or if you wana see how much weight i gained in 3 weeks time feel free to do so!

sydney bridge

opera house! *sings

camwhoring with the teddy biscuits! =p

st andrew's cathedral! =))

being all touristy in the middle of the city!

bah! too lazy to post pics. okthxforreadingbyebye!

oh oh! last before i stop crapping : watashiwa kawaii des ka? ka? ka? HAHAHHAHA *shameless you dont have to answer that. okthanksbubye. *runs away

ai,
e bon!

change is good?

somebody once said....

"sydney changes people."




will she really change me?

if yes....will the change be good?

or will it be bad?

change is good.

i think.

hands up!

the question of that day :
hands up...for those who reads my craps!



well...technically its not a sudden thought...i have really been wondering who reads my crazy-mostly-driven-by-my-imbalance-hormones-rants-and-emoness mind that is literally translated into words on this kinda boring page. *shamelessly still blogging

seriously.... i am amazed even by the snail development of my site meter that currently reads at OH-MY- 806! dats alot for me. *skips n jumps in circle*
*well i am a super low expectation girl! i guess. i know to some people..they dun give any shitz bout this or what but really i am contended! something small like that can really send me up cloud nine! =p

and to have people leaving comments they sure feel good! *flattered

in case some of you dont know that i have previously blogged before but due to some personal related matter i chose not to put my life out in an open book! here's the link! =p * in case some of you would be interested to c how i never change from my silly self! haha! *shy

so a big thank you for all who took the time and effort to read me!
*bear bear hug*

God bless!
& have a nice day!

my kissing face! *muaks*

p / s : i wonder know if you like my kiss? hahahhaha!

@#$%^&

im officially piss off right now.

super tu lan! *pulls hair*

i can go around and start cursing like a mad person.

i am THAT angry.

some people are just born brainless!

really duno what they have in their mind!

well i hope they will realize their mistake for playing with fire and they GROW UP.

sien.

G'day mate!

greetings from the land of the kangaroos!
speaking of which i have yet to c one hopping around as i would imagine! =p
i have actually arrived on the 12th of feb but i was too jet-lagged and busy hopping around my hostel n uni n getting myself to settle down. glad that all is almost done now! =)
well...the weather was unusually hot when we arrived however it took a drastic turn the very next day and up till now its super cold! at least for me. ==''' *because i have super low resistance towards coldness! Boo hoo! =(
who says summer is all hot n sunny! *humph*

Oowww..how i envy those ang moh's who can just go out in their casual tops n shorts. unlike me..who like any newbies at a foreign country wrap myself up like a dumpling! like this :

this is the very first pic i took after arriving here! =)

eventhough i do miss malaysia i really like it here! =)
confession time...the reason why i did not took any pictures up till yesterday was because i was missing malaysia..*shy

okla..enough emo-ing! moving to the happy things...
i got the best room! hehe..every house consists of 5 rooms meaning u have 4 other housemates! my house are occupied by 5 malaysian...=) n my room ...is the freaking BIGGEST room in the house! muahahhaha..=p its like double the size of the room of of my housemates. *yeah!
this means...more space ofr my junks & rubbish! haha! did i mention my 3 luggage that weights approximately 35kg have only my clothes,bags, n shoes! haha..=p

my aunt's house is like 20mins away..so thats another thing to be grateful for! *counting my blessing! hehe..=)

sometimes...i cant believe that i am actually really in Sydney. because when i walk around the Macquarie Center, * its a shopping center you actually see more Asians than ang mohs. so...it actually feel like we are in KL. haha! =p

what i learnt bout SYdney in the last 4 days :

- ASIANS are everywhere. throw a stone and 90% chances are you will hit an asian. LOL. =p
- never convert the currency..else..you wont buy @ eat anything! >.<
- no night life. 5pm n all the shops are closed! aww..i will miss going shopping at night! =(
- repeating news on tv. they have like news every hour of the day!
- the newscaster can be an 60 year old lady. how cool is that! =)
- rabbits we find cute are consider pests in Aussie. this i dont know why! oh..they run like super fast! forget the thoughts of catching one and making a rabbit stew! =p
- drinking water straight from the tap wont result in a stomachache cuz they r so clean! - transportation are super expensive! T.T
- you dont need a fan in the room! cuz its so windy! - you get hungry so fast even though you ate so much! =(

some pics before im off to feed my hungry stomach! =p

maple leave so BIG its as big as my face!

naked tree!

Dear God,

Dear Heavenly Father,
Thank you for keeping your promises to me! Lord, you say that those who perseveres will be rewarded. You say that those who remains faithful and loyal and obedient to you will be rewarded. and i thank you Lord for your love,grace and mercy is enough for me! They keep me lifted and they gave me strength. For i know that when the world has their back on me i can always count on you. You have prepared everything for me and i know i should not be afraid about embarking on a new chapter of my life. I will treasure this given chance and i shall put my faith in you Lord. i pray that Lord you continue to comfort me and calm me down. I pray that Lord you grant me a safe journey to Australia. I also ask that Lord you will also comfort the heart of those who are dear to me as i know my departure affects them as much as it affects me. Thank you Lord once again for you faithfulness. i know...The same Lord who protected me yesterday will protect me tomorrow and forever! in Jesus most precious name i pray..Amen!

pre-flight panic attacks

i cant believe that i am having this pre-flight jitters thingy. =(

i have been waiting and praying for the past 2 and a half years that i can make it through it and secure myself a ticket to Aussie!

now that i am flying like in less than 36hours...im really panicking.

HAIZ! to the max samo!

i cant believe this is happening. my palms are sweaty. my stomach feels like its gona explode anytime due to the heavy butterflies in my stomach...my heart is beating so fast it could jump right out. *somebody come and gimme a slap in my face pls.

i used to think that i will not at any cost be sad or emo bout leaving Malaysia..leaving everybody that is so dear to me for 2 years, leaving everything that i love here, leaving everything that spells C.O.M.F.O.R.T to me.

but here i am now.

feeling lost.

worried.

over-reacting.

i bet wrinkles are mushrooming on my face now. =(

i bet i would cry so badly on the day of my departure that i can flood KLIA. ==''' because i am already missing everybody and everything! *my whole kampung will come and send me off. haha!

my laptop is playing Mylie Cyrus's "The Climb". 0.o
could this be a message by God?
He knows my fear and my anxiety....and telling me that through a song! AMEN!

God indeed is good. =)

p/s : talking craps helps ease my tension. so pls bear with me. *bluek i actually felt much better now! =) oh..and er...i somehow enjoy talking to myself. haha! =p

B for Bunny & Boo!

*all the bunnies at my house on the 3rd day of CNY*

BUNNY NEW YEAR CAME AND IS NOW GONE!


BOO to that! *sulking

this means that i am leaving malaysia real soon. =(

bye bye black!

BEFORE

as promised...a pic of my AFTER hair!

okla..its not like this now. T.T
oh. in case u didn't notice...i also cut my hair shorter. =p
i have no idea how the hair stylist works his magic with my hair man! *depressed
I.ABSOLUTELY.LOVE.THE.WAY.HE.BLOWS.MY.HAIR! =)))

BUT
i duno how to blow till my hair looks so chio! *sobs

haiz.

MUST LEARN! *hopeful look

okla..maybe some of u would say that i dun look any different...cuz the colour is really really super close with my natural colour. =p
cuz i am such a coward that i do not want to have super bright coloured hair.
somehow..i think this has got to do ALOT with the fact that i am a future teacher to be and i (people) stereotyped that teacher should not be blondies! >.<
have to admit, im super afraid of others judging me. haiz.
but people judge people all the time. sad but true. =(

bye bye black! teehee~

i heart bangkok!

super late post on my bangkok trip! =p
my first visit to Bangkok and i fall head over heals for it! actually is the shopping la! lol.

my summary of Bangkok :

DAY 1

DAY 2

DAY 3

( p/s : just so that i make it clear..the above purchases are not mine alone. its the labour of love & sweat (p/p/s : actually the 2 guys r the one sweating la! cuz they help us to carry all those shopping bags! =p ) for 4 of us...2 dudes & 2 babes! hehe...)

CONCLUSION : SI BEH SYIOK TO SHOP!

i wana go naoooooo! *sulk

just the though of going shopping in Bangkok again is sending me into a happy stroke. wth. okla..im a lil over with the term stroke but seriously its like O.M.Gosh!!!!

every freaking shop is like different from the other shops.
ohya! we went to Platinum mall. its like our Sg Wang but this is like 10000 times better to shop cuz they offer u choices, styles and super duper affordable price!
you have to go there if u ever go to Bangkok! dats if you r a girl la. if u r a dude be nice n go with your girlfriend la...k? =p

tell me who dun like CHEAP & NICE & STYLISH things? *hard stare*

statistics of my purchase :
14 tops,
5 shorts,
5 skirts,
3 dresses,
a jacket,
2 scarfs,
5 pair of earrings,
3 pair of flats,
a pair of pumps,
3 bags,
2 belts,
2 necklaces,
2 set's of kid's clothes and also some souvenir!

kapunka~~~ ( means thank you in Thailand. )

i posted my bangkok pics in my fb and friends who saw me after that all commented the same thing.
"WAH...so crazy of u 2 ( meaning me & sis ) to shop so much in Bangkok!"
i think by now..everybody will be thinking that both me n my sis r like these crazy mad women who does not have any control of ourselves when it comes to shopping. true to a certain extend but both of us definitely have some self control. else we would be buying the whole Platinum mall back! hahaha..=p

to be honest....i regret not buying more! =( because its not like everyday that i get to go to Bangkok right? *giving self reason to buy more.
but....
i missed the chance..so nvm la..i will definitely come back to you Bangkok!

ohya...something really funny to share...
when we first arrived, my sis's BF jokingly told us that each of us wold have to buy 30 items or more cuz that would only make our trip worth it. all 4 of us laughed at it saying that its impossible cuz that crazy!
turns out....we hit that figure at Day 2 itself. hahahahahhahahhaa......
moral of the lesson : never say things randomly cuz u never know what might just come true! =p

okla..
we are not so bad la!
we went Bangkok liao....of cuz have to look and see Bangkok itself! apart from the shopping la!
so whats better way to know and experience their very own unique culture by visiting the famous touristy place?

The Grand Palace! and a huge complex of temples just beside it.
ahhh..speaking of killing 2 birds at once. me likey! save on our taxi fare! oooh..did i mention their taxi r like crazy cheap? waaaay cheaper than our Malaysian taxi and waaaay more comfortable taxis! =) heck..even their tuk tuk costs more than the taxi! somehow..i feel that ever since tuk tuk start gaining its popularity among the tourists...it became the easiet weapon to chop us tourist! cuz u find tuk tuk only in Thailand. wth, that makes lotsa sense. =='''

ok enough of making myself look shallow. i shall show u some pics that hopefully will make me look cute! hahahaa...=p

both my sis and i were required to wear the sarung thingy cuz our pants were deemed inappropriate. apparently leggings are not allowed cuz its accentuates our Jlo butts. lol. joking. i made this up. they have a dress code and we did not meet their dress code. anyway my sis & i tied the sarung in a more edgy style. cuz we duno how to tie the sarung but i think they looked cute cuz many ppl were staring at our sarung. or its cuz we r like 2 stupid fella tying something like that. haha! but who cares la..we had fun with it! =)


behold the temples.
eh...my photography skill not bad leh.....muahahhaa..=p

so...apa macam..not bad right? ahahhaha..i knw i know..i am very thick faced..but i really think they r not bad lo! =p *pats myself on head & back!

in the temple we :

ate!

they have edamame in bangkok!

was shocked!

jumped!

and posed!

and posed again!

and again..............

sorry for the vain pose.

ahh.....i need to make myself clear again. i am a Christian. stepping into a temple does not in any way show that i am converted to their religion. i believe in Christ. its just a visit and i respect other religion. pure appreciation of the beautiful architectural aspect of the buildings. nothing more. nothing less. i have faith in my Saviour that he will protect me wherever i go and i have Faith in my own Faith in Christ. =)

enough and happy with the temples...we went over to the Grand Palace!

i am beginning to like this kinda photos. the " walk & turn" pose as i call it. haha! =p

got myself a bottle of ICED mango juice to recharge myself and be as strong as he is!
the sun was crazy hot lo that day..we were all roasted like pigs. =.=
my sis actually brought 2 umbrellas all the way from Malaysia! but we left them in the hotel. we forget bout them. smart. very smart.

The Grand Palace.

me & him =)

taking a long rest cause the complex were so big we walked till our leg wana certify its own death.

no lashes. i need my fake lashes. T.T

this is the cutest & friendliest guard on duty! he actually smiled & posed for us! hehe...=p

me & my dear sis!

purple lotus!


pink lotus!

okla.enough of pics. super lazy to upload liao. and also i think this is a super long post liao.

all in all....

i heart bangkok ! did i mention bout the shopping? oh.i did. sorry. =p

ding dong!

im back after such a long hiatus!
i had a crazy packed week! so many things to share about...
just a quick update of what i had been doing the past week:
1) a dear friend's wedding! =) i think this is actually the first wedding of a childhood friend of mine..it was so sweet seeing the 2 people who grew with us finally tied the knot! will talk bout this further! ^^

2) went to kl and attend our predeparture briefing. everything is all set and im flying on the 10th of feb. its feels a lil' surreal that i am finally really gonna fly...thank God for this! amen! im running against time right now!

3) went pavillion for the first time. not a place for me cuz i dun like going to a shopping mall where the only shops that i can go in and actually shop is Forever21 and CottonOn. the rest of the shop...dun even dare to look at it. ==''' i duno y ppl who cant afford this likes to go there and brag bout how they LOVE shopping there? maybe walking there for a round can boost one's self esteem and amplify their egoness by imagining that they r actually from the "atas" community for being able to (window)shop in pavillion. *puff*

4) went Uniqlo for the very first time & guess who was shopping there too with us? hiak hiak hiak...its Tun Dr Mahathir! din know that he likes street wear! haha...=p anyway loads of ppl were asking him for photographs..me n sis wanted to do so too but i guess seeing how he was ambushed and poor man was only trying to look around for clothes but ppl come n kacau like that...we decided not to take pics la..plus..he had like 4 bodyguards beside him. haha. dowana be stopped by them cuz if it happened..damn embarrassing only lo...right? =p nvm la.i get to c him in person at least once before i die also i am satisfied liao. lol.

5 ) i.......did.....something....to....my....hair.....! being a boring person who always likes to play it safe by sticking to the same hair n almost same length since i am 10....i did something i would say shocking to myself! after 13 years! =p well..technically 23 years la..cuz i have been having the same hair style since i am 10..shoulder length or a lil' long, kinda straight, no bangs or short fringe...never permed except for those temporary hair do's...never ever dyed my hair....i finally...DYED them. =p anyway..it is not a super bright colour..very near to my natural hair colour..i would say its dark brown...when everybody else is telling me that its not worth it that i spend so much doing it but its not obvious..i actually loved it! because..i never thought that a day like this would come because i never had the courage to do so! haha! so yes. i love my hair. i love the colour. oh..did i mentioned that the hair stylist is a korean? hahaha! =p went to Yoo Jean's saloon in Sri Hartamas for it. =) shall show u the hair once i get a nice decent pic of myself k! =)

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ok. imma start to talk bout the wedding! =)
warning first..this is gonna be one long post with loads of pics! =p

well..the sweet celebrated couple is Lemon & Huiteen!

the beauty and the handsome!

we knew the bride way back then as all of us attends the same church and youth fellowship.

their love story was a simple one!
LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT!
there. done. =)

one day...lemon ( the groom ) came to our church and there he met the angel of his life. and thus....came the man and after a sweet courtship...they finally got together!
and its so happy seeing them tying the knot and building a family together.

their wedding took place in marina island ( the hottest lepak-ing place in sitiawan currently!) its actually a private property owned by a developer..it really is a very beautiful place!oh...its also a reclaimed island and jetty as well to go to Pangkor Island. only 10mins to go there. form the old jetty in lumut u need like 25mins if i am not mistaken. so save lots of time! ok. cuti-cuti sitiawan commercial break is over. back to the wedding.

they had a wedding ceremony the garden-open-air-style.


lookie at the seaaaa! ahhhhhh~



anyway..the wedding reception was also held at the same place..just beside where the wedding ceremony took place.

anyway dats bout all the details..now its picture time! ^^
let the pictures do its magic!

me & huichin ( bride's sister ) and the door gift. =)

the 4 bridesmaids & the beautiful bride and uncle ( kenot c uncle here) before we march in! =)

the groomsmen, the perfect couple, the bridesmaids

bro, me, & sis with the couple.
this cute lil' girl is a relative of the bride n she super like to take pics! haha..i mean like super. sees a camera and she attacks it. haha. she will just stand into the crowd n smile! =p

these r the people i grew up with! my dearest bro & sis in Christ! =)



me & dear sis! ^^

hangway & myself. i cant believe that my head is actually bigger than his. T.T

now imma tell u the story of how i got to be a bridesmaid. yeah. there's a story to it. haha. initially i was not a bridesmaid. another girl was supposed to have the honour of it..but on the morning of the day of the wedding..her car was hijacked. =( so she could make it back thus..i was the substitute to her....its very unfortunate of how i actually became the bridesmaid..but i am more than happy to be one.=) not that i wish the girl to be hijacked but u know what i mean. btw its my very first time as a bridesmaid! so yes..i am happy. =)

and last but not least....


me & the beautiful bride! =)

i pray that this blessed day will be the start for a blissful marriage for lemon & huiteen!

i know the pics looked great right? im not saying i look pretty or what k ( eventhough i think i looked really great haha but hey! everybody looked great on that day! ^^ ) the pics does not tell the whole picture of the day..lol. we were all sweaty and roasted because dear Mr Sun was so mean to us that day! but its not raining..so i think sunny day is better than rainy day! but all pics turn out really nice..so i think its all well worth! hiak hiak hiak.

p/s : next blogpost will be my bangkok trip! i finally got the pics! teehee~

till then.....

xoxo,

von