same old resolutions!

i cant believed that 2010 is coming to an end! *gasp*
it zoomed and vroomed passed me so fast that i think F1 driver also dont know the definition of "speed" anymore.
haiz.

as i look back..i am reminded of how many failures that i had under my belt throughout the years that left me in tears and disappointment. nevertheless...we cant always view things as the way it is...peeling off the layers of sadness of every incident or as i would like to call them shitty stuffs..i find them contributing to the current me. in a good way of cuz. muahaha..self absorbing again. =p

its so cliche i know to say that behind every incident there is so many good things bout it yadayadayada...but these words...they are so true!
many have commented how i have changed in this year. *shy* and with my current age.it would be seriously odd if i have not grown an inch of maturity! =p i am proud to say that i am 22 ! haha!

but those shitty incidents...i shall never forget the lesson learnt! =(

but of cuz..there is also the other side of a coin.
much failures but much blessings and success too!
for example....i manage to gain and lost weight like a balloon.
or when i get the results that i dare not dream about! thank God for this!=)
or like when i won 2 tickets to the MTV Asia award by clicking onto their website. damn lucky! haha.
and many many others la! cant remember them.
haha...i have lousy memory. i know. old already what to do. haiz.

well...going to what people call resolutions ( because they can never find a solution to those resolution! )..my resolutions remained the same as the previous! haha.

let me just name a few :

1 ) To root myself in God"s word & have stronger foundation in God!
well...need i say more? When you honour God in the things that you do..God will honour u in return! Amen!


2 ) to be a hardworking women!
haiz...i hate this phrase " there is no such thing called an ugly women..there is only lazy women." SEE....give ppl stress only..haha! fyi,this is a chinese idioms. i have to admit that as much as i love to dress up n all..i am like the laziest girl that u wont believed it too when i tell u that i dun wash my afce regularly. i can go on without washing my face for like 3 days? haha...or that even when i wash face..i may not necessarily do the follow up steps such as moisturizing and toning them...or etc...or that i dun like to apply lotion on my body because i find it too troublesome. HAHA! oh..just remembered...i bought a bottle of body lotion earlier this year...n its like still 97% full! =p
yes. i am that lazy! haha! so i dowana be a lazy women no more! i wana be a hardworking one! muahahahahah...!


3 ) to lose weight. =='''
i think this is like on every girl's list. haha! like how can you not include this right? right? okla...let me be more realistic this time. i wana target my thigh area. they are like HUGE!T.T
though i know..its almost impossible..nevermind la...let me syiok syiok la...ok? haha! =p hey! stop imagining how my thigh looks like now! *hard stare*

4 ) too lazy to think liao. haha! shall add on to it when i figure it out. =p

have a great New Year peeps!
A Great start to another Great year ahead!
let us all kiss 2010 goodbye and welcome 2011 with a new spirit!
and dont forget to Thank God for His Grace and Mercy and also His faithfulness to us that brings us through 2010!
God bless!


xoxo,
von

reasons to blog

i am "eat-full-nothing-better-to-do" mood now..so imma just makea quick update to kill my time! haha. life at home is good but when nobody is around. time passes by really slow............................T.T

okie dokie! so here goes my reasons to blog!

1) sense of POWER! *muahahha*
i need somewhere where i am in charge of is. like im the ladyboss! *happy* can crap whatever i want to! well..i know i am too much of a talker to some people..so instead of bugging ppl all the time to talk to me..or listen to in ( in most cases! =p ) well,why not put my thoughts and feelings into words. it sometimes feels so good because i think im doing myself and others a major favour. haha! me, because i get to expressed myself with full freedom! and i save others from any torment they may have to go through because i can be a very naggy person. =p

2) SHARING is caring! *lame.i know.*
i figure that since i will be going to aussie real soon * keeping my fingers crossed n hopes that everything goes smooth! God bless me!* i find that keeping a blog may be good for some ppl who might miss me! *cough* not trying to say that many ppl are interested in what i do with my life but i feel keeping a blog might be good that i ppl can see me! and be reminded of me! =) going abroad will be a great experience and there will be lotsa interesting things that i wana share with others..so having blog means i can blog bout them..and ppl come, read and they noned to ask me again right? den i dun have to repeat myself so many times. ooh..suddenly feel so clever. *pats myself on back!* haha! =p

3 ) for ME! =)
i am a strong believer that when you are having the mood of an angry lion or feeling as blue-est as u can due to a major PMS or watever other extreme moods or feelings...u say things that u will definitely regret ltr on! which yours truly is majorly guilty of..*sigh*
i am bad tempered. i know. and my tears flow like the Nigeria Falls when my crying button is hit! so i know this makes me looks like an angry + irrational +childish person. but im learning to grow up and keep praying that one day..i will be able to have more self control over myself. so i believe this blog of mine could be a great place for me to sit down and reflect on myself when times like this come. to just sit..and think...and blog whats in my heart! its not called "tete-a-tete" for no reason. fyi, tete-a-tete means to talk heart to heart! =)

4) the utmost license to CAMWHORE! *clicksclicks*
i love photography! or rather i love to take pics of myself.me. and i! =p haha! *camwhores* i just love taking pics although sadly...i am not veyr photogenic but those pics serve as a remembrance of what i did,where.and when. =) and camwhoring is like sooo allowed when you have a blog! =p dun believe me..go see out of 10 women bloggers..which one does not post pics of themselves ha? *shifty eyes* so..yeah..imma get the license to camwhore more and post them up without feeling weird unless some of you comments that you wana vomit seeing my pics which i pray not to happen and if it really happens i will just say "like i care" because its my blog and if you happen to see me and vomit..consider that is a good act on my side to help ur indigestion problem! HAHA! =p


to end my post for today with.......

this

and this

and this too


I AM SO IN LOVE WITH THIS NEW LICENSE! * skip & do chicken dance*
even happier than when i first got my driving licence. =='''
im vain.but not shallow. =p

okla. i think dats enough of vomiting already. dowan to torture u all samo la! see..im quite a considerate person right? *im swt-ing against myself and amazed at my own thick-face-ness! lmao*

tata! have a great day everyone! God bless! =)

xoxo,
von

cry baby

i cried.
call me cry baby or whatsoever name u like.
but
i cried not because i WANT to
i cried not because i LIKE to
i cried not because i NEED to
but
i cried because those damn tears flows cannot be controlled.

if only i have better self-control over my own conscience,feelings and emotions.

tears are signs of my anger.
tears are signs of my disappointment.
tears are signs of my immaturity.
tears are signs of my foolishness.
tears are signs of my guilt.

tears are nothing but signs of my weaknesses.

no human being is perfect. only GOD.

p/s : in case you are wondering..i am a human. with feelings. thanks.

blessed Christmas!

Oh...HOLY NIGHT! =)

its Christmas eve!
cant believe how time flies...its the last celebration of the year and i have been waiting for Christmas to arrive. =)

Christmas always come bringing peace, love and joy!
every year during Christmas, i feel so happy!

i remember how we ( my friends & i ) were always so crazy busy during the whole month of december. we would all be so busy preparing for Christmas.

you have the carol practice, choir practice, den we have drama at times..or dances or even both dance n drama..so many things to do that we practically spent our holidays at church going from early morning ( as early as 8am to practice our things! *gasp* i am amazed at myself. currently my "standart" wake up time is 12.30pm. lol. ) we would usually be back home in the late noon or evening.






back in the days when were were on carol ( 2008) ! * sings carol*












ur eyes are fine. i was seriously a guitarist back then. for once. haha! =p it was super hard cuz my fingers were so much in pain but it was still great!this pic is like sooo 2006. =p











i remember how my mum used to tease us by saying " oh...u guys are back..i thought that you guys will be staying overnight in church!".
well..i am thankful that my parents were so supportive of us and we were all really happy to serve the Lord! =)
i believed each and everyone of us served with a joyful heart! ahhh..those were the days...=)













Family pic! 2009





as i see myself grow older and getting less involved with the church Christmas programme..it saddens me at times. that i could not serve the way i wanted to. yes. maybe this is my own selfish choice for deceiving myself that i am "too old" to be involved or that i am no longer part of the youth fellowship or that there are younger generations taking over what we used to do...






our generation( there were more but not in this pic! )! lol. i make us sound so old. 2009








nevertheless, Christmas means so much more to me than Santa ( im scared of seeing santa. seriously. might be due to some childhood trauma. lol. ) , presents,ohhh..who doesnt like presents..but those r not all! and Christmas trees! they r beuuuuuatiful! i go like "awwww" when i see a pretty christmas trees! haha! speaking of which...i saw like the real Christmas trees in Ikea the other day when i was visiting KL. after 22 years!*shed tears of joy* or the Mistletoe!















PINK Christmas tree in Sentosa, singapore 2010.










Christmas means love. joy. peace. family. friends. and most of all...Jesus! =)


















Blessed Christmas everyone! from 2 lost reindeer. =='''

*hugs & kisses*

yvonne

desperate

desperate is not yours sincerely.

desperate are those lil' cute pieces of clothes and dresses in my closet.
*sigh*
they are all screaming out to be me wear them! =(

as i sit alone tonight pondering what has become of my life.
i kinda realized that they were kinda dull & boring. at least they are now in this small little hometown of mine where ppl seems to pass comments that may not always be pleasing to the ears when they see a young lady dressing up. =='''

by dressing up here is to go our in something that spells fashion. as though i am fashionable but at least i ahve my own sense of dressing well, people say as long as you are happy that should do it.*shifty eyes*

i feel depressed thinking how i used to be able to go out & most of all get to dress up. putting make up on does not seemed to be a problem back during my days in penang. going out with your hair done..heels & a nice dress seems normal! *gasp*

but here..in sitiawan...going out dressing up like that to the most high end supermarket ( Giant. yes. u heard me right ) that would not only look crazy..that would sound crazy! :O

i think my clothes are crying with me too!

just the other day..i wore something which i would not call nice or even pretty cuz i think they look pretty normal...a tank top with a leggings to go out shopping for groceries with my parents & my mum asked " why are you wearing so nice out? you are in Sitiawan." well..need i say more? haha...

dun get me wrong...i love my hometown. i love having times when you can go in and out of your house in your most worn out top or like floral shorts that makes it all so homely for u when you put them on because u have had them with you since like 15?
having no fear that some babes will judge u as a kampung girl or what but really...sometimes i would appreciate having the right place and right reason to dress up!

will my dear Sitiawan even make a step forward to fashion? hmmm....*thiking pose*

arrrghhhh.....okla..i admit...im desperate to go out & having the license to dress up! humph!
i think im officially kinda crazy! fashionably that is.

well..thats what happens to one when you have awful lotsa time to sit down & reflect bout your life!

maybe i should spend more time thinking something less bimbotic. haha! =p


























totally not related. just feel like posting a huge ass pic of me camwhoring! haha! =p

xoxo,
yvonne

found when lost

humans always take things for granted. as least in yvonneling's case.
i always take things for granted. just because those things are always available for me.
or some angels will be helping me to it...
or some angels will be helping me to solve my problems...
or some angels will be helping me to find the answers to my questions though some maybe really stewpid questions. ( but i disgress..i hold on to the saying that goes no question is bad question! haha! *bluek* )
or somehow...it will be done.

be it that i asked others to help me..or some ppl are born with this great big heart that they r willing to help u with just bout anything! *counting her blessings*

like the bible says " ask and you will be given...."
so jst ask around sure got ppl will help u wan! ( it seems the chio-er u r..the easier it will be done. or if u have a good PR skills la. or u r damn good in begging others for help! =p )

thus..due to this..
i always take things for granted. because i always manage to find some good Samaritans to help me all the time! *sobs<<tears of joy!

let me give a list of those critical times :

- whenever my stewpididiotic laptop gives me problem & they r ALWAYS, really like always hapening like 3 days or so from the due date of my assignment. okla. i know its my fault for procrastinating my assignements to the very last minute..but..who doesnt right? haha! *pushing the ball to everyone*

-when i duno aniting bout car, whats wrong with car n whats with the button and all like i only discover the almighty smoking thingy( see i duno the name of that compartment! )
can actually be used to plug in your phone charger & your thumbdrive player this year when my bro & sis started using them! *enlightment*

-when i duno anything bout phone like how to send mms or where is the camera button *camwhores*

-when i duno where & how to find that particular thing from the internet. i am always asking ppl where to find this la...or give example my latest attempt to download the most important forms for my uni's hostel thingy..i tried. n actually downloaded the wrong thing. =( so i had to ask the thing from my friend. after spending hours to figure out how to download it. haiz.

-when i need to c doc. you see..the problem with me is that..i duno that i am sick. HAHA! isnt this like the funniest thing ever. like seriously...i duno that i am having fever untill my friends or my parents tell me bout it when i complain bout feeling unwell. flu i know la. cuz got flu mah! but fever...its tricky. cuz i always got confused as to whether i am having fever or just headache. ok u can stop being amazed at my super power of not being able to know when i am not sick, sick or really sick. HAHA! =p

-when i duno what war is going on between who and what causes the war to broke out. i seriosuly duno or maybe dun care..cuz i find all thses things evil. they r cruel. people starved,orphaned,killed,tortured etc etc. its depressing to read them but once in a while...i do ask around just to be updated. or maybe increase my knowledge on geography. this could also be the reason why i fail at war n all cuz my geography sucks. *shy*

-when i duno bout politics. i kinda hate hearing or knowing bout politics cuz they make u take sides. they make u judge people. they make u see the ugly truth or reality of politics and all. okla.i dowana go that far. like i said i just dun like politics but again...at times..i would force myself to understand what's going so that i know what is going on. haha! =p

-when i cant find where the toilet is . obviously this happens in the shopping malls ! lol. i am that kinda person who always feel like i wana go toilet. sometimes..i feel like...kenot. my bladder will burst if i dun go...den when i go..its like a rat's amout of pee. ==''' this is what we call think too much. or just a bad sense of peeing?

-when i am surviving on jacob biscuits in my hostel. i am a person who will not and wont climb all the way down my room in my hostel which is located on the 3rd floor all the way down to buy me some food if i am feeling lazy. if im hungry n i dun feel like going out..i will just munch whatever that is in my foodie cupboard and the worse case of all would be jacob biscuits. so yea..i rather eat biscuits maybe to make it more luxurious i will make myself a cup of milo n dats it. one meal. so i am very very dependent on some angels to send me food. haha! =p

-when i emo. emo noned to explain. u get what i wana say. when u feel sad & depressed u just want some ppl to be there to listen to you whining and pouring your heart out.

-when i am deprived of entertainment. very important. i sometimes feel that i dun have much friend. well i shall keep that for another blog post. neway..i have been really blessed that most of the time when i ask ppl out..they do come out! wheee~ deprived of entertainment will make yvonne a bitter girl! =p

okla..enough of examples..u get what i mean. i know..i know..i make myself sound so bimbotic n all..for not knowing bout most things. T___T

so my point is..there has always been so many people who have been so important in my life. sometimes..i forgot how lucky i am. i take them for granted. i do not see how important these people are in my life. i cry over other people who hurt my feelings but i never take time to see the great people around me. those who not only laugh with me..but also cried with me.

i am reflecting on myself very much lately...i want to improve myself. i dont want others to say that i take things for granted. most of all...i dowana find myself crying over regretting to appreciate all these lovely people who have always been there for me whenever i needed them.

i dont want to find them only when i am lost.

or missing somebody so much that it breaks my heart that they cannot be available with just one sms or one call.

things will definitely not be the same.

12.12.2010

happy blessed birthday to you-know-who-you-are!
may you be richly blessed in your life.
thank you for being such a big part of my life.



















p/s : i owe u some cup cakes okie? =p

its mental

its mental!
very very berry mental!
christmas is just around the corner. well dats the good part.
the bad part or the mental part is...my house is as messy as a pig sty! muffin!
so i must turn off my piggie mode and change it to a cow mode. gotta start working.
cant let Merry Christmas be a Messy Christmas.

happy cleaning to me!

muffin

muffin is THE current verb for me.























why not?
muffins r great. especially chocolate muffins. ah..banana muffins are not too bad either. *drolls*

how do you use "muffin"?

example :

"MUFFIN..i forget to bathe today."

or

"MUFFIN..the muffin fella is so annoying la."

or simply

"MUFFIN betol la u ni....."

in case u think that i am crazy for lovin' muffin. well, in "eat.pray.love" (i love the movie to the max!) Julia Robert's character used muffin top to sugar coat the F word that every girl loath. or rather every girl is afraid of hearing. mind u. the F word here that i am referring to is FAT *gasp*.
thus, the F word shall now be replaced by "muffin"! =)














there...a pic for those visual learners to see things clearly. in case ur imagination is like so damn char la. lol.

and now....to announce something!

*drum rolls*

i officially have a MUFFIN top.
( Yvonne, 2010 )

er...its not the BIG muffin...its just a small one but small one is bad enough. =*(
so imma try to cut down on my muffin-ness now. *doing some sit ups*

hey! that is waaaaaaay gentler on moi's fragile emotional frame of mind..!

so to all those who are concern ( referring to those who like to call me the F word)

PLS use muffin top from now on! *serious face*
























chocolate muffin anyone? =p

moo moo cow

i am finally back from my hectic crazy fun trip to singapore & KL. loads of things to share but i shall skip the touristy part and blog bout the highlight of my 7days trip! my roadtrip back to sitiawan. yeah. its the highlight! trust me.

u might be wondering what is soooo geng bout my roadtrip back home right. and what has it got to do with cows? *moo moo*








huge ass nose. haha!












this pic makes me laugh like mad! lol


okla...i shall not beat around the bush no more. before we begin....to those who are animal lovers i mean those super fanatic one. pls leave at once. i do not want to be sued. =='''

after one week of eat.play.shop, we decided to rush back home yesterday night because daddy Von has been home alone since last thursday. so..we feel that to compensate him..we cannot defer our trip any longer as we promised him that we will be back on thursday. ( p/s : we kinda broke this promise cuz we reached home early friday morning. haha! )

so...because me n sis we crazily doing our last minute shopping spree...we were late. like really late. makan dinner with sis n bernard..den only we start our journey back home. stopped by rawang to fetch our cousin.

before we started the journey..i prayed that God will bring us back safe and sound. and ask that He take care of us all. amen! so...we had a smooth journey along the highway. took the exit to Bidor.

that was around 12.15am.

so.....there were few cars ahead of us. saw a few cows, both big n small la beside the road....so we already slow down liao......pass by the most critical place. critical cuz there were like around 15cows that i saw la..after that..we all assume that we are safe liao. like seriously.. suddenly ...i remembered that my bro told me bout an incident where her friend ran over a cow n the cow tumbled across the car the jacky chan style la. but the car was in damn shitty state la cuz her front mirror cracked n the front part..noned say liao la..its a kancil. so pls get your imagination going on.

the next minute.....

a stewpid baby calf came running towards our car from my side. i was sitting on the front seat. so imagine our horror. could stop in time. ran over it. BANG. n the calf went jacky chan style. T_____T fung over n landed smack right in the middle of the road. we tot it was dead. den suddenly it stood up. n we left. shocked.like.MAD.

even though our car is like wrecked...i still thank God for HE kept His promise. HE kept us safe. imagine..if the calf were to land on the front mirror....me n my bro would be in danger. like really bad la. and if there were cars who were following closely behind us...it would have ran into us n also into the calf right. and if it was not a calf but a cow. i duno what to imagine man. seriously. THANK GOD for His grace and mercy! phewww.... =)

to the animal lovers..im so sorry we ran over a cow..but its not like we want to right. it was an accident. and i really felt bad for the calf la. i think it will not survive. my condolences to the calf. maybe he will make a great steak.

now...my question is...why are the freaking COWS running rampant and without guidance in the middle of the night. sorry. early morning. it was freaking 12.30am ok! ==''' now we had to bear the cost of emotional trauma of hitting a cow and also the cost of repairing the car.

ohya..speaking of which..we ran into policemen around 1.30am. he stopped us. cuz our car looked like we hit n run some poor fella. T____T even asked for my bro's driving license n I.C n also ours....(p/s : think we all china Dolls a?!?!)

first thing he asked.

cop : "apa pasai?"
us : " langgar lembu encik. "
cop : "oooh...dekat mana? "
us : "bidor encik..."

the next thing he asked. actually is they la..there were like 5 of them...all came n kepo. left the policestop to talk with us.

cop : " lembu tu mati ke? "

LOL...i find it really funny that everybody asked if the cow died. =p

us : " tak...nampak dia bangun lagi tu..."
cop : "lembu nie memang macam ni...yang muda tu la bodoh...nampak cahaya dia terlompat-lompat keluar"

*ROFL* u tell me..funny anot our cop! haha! =p

us : ya la encik...tiba tiba dia lari keluar..kita pun terkejut!"
cop : "nasib baik ini kereta jepun..kalau kereta malaysia..habis. engin engin sekali hancur kemek."

what else can i say...MALAYSIA BOLEH!

after some lame conversation...we left. came back home n got nagged by my daddy.

ironically....4 of us in car could still find the whole incident funny. mommy von even went n said "mei..remind me tmr morning ya...wake up first thing in the morning must go buy number." *ROFL*












our car. with missing car number plate.

OHYA....n we got souvenirs!








COW DUNG. T_____T
















thank you mr moo moo!

























i think he is happy.