this is it

this is my blog and i cant rant whatever i want to.
this blog is supposed to share my happy moments.
not the bitter side of me.

somehow i find myself writing lots n lots of emo posts. which is so not healthy.
maybe its because whenever i feel so happy i would be too busy being happy that i dont find the need to sit down in front of my lappie and start talking bout happy things! cuz i can do much more fun things rather than sitting quietly and typing.

as for today i am going through the same exact feeling.

God is fair.

fair the sense that i had lotsa of happy moments ever since 5weeks ago when i landed in the land of the roos but also had my share of days when i feel so sad being here.

fair in the sense that i make lots of new and great friends but sadly, i think i am losing one or maybe some of people i used to adore.

fair in the sense that i am always surrounded by great people that make me feel so special and that my presence matters to them but at time, even when i am surrounded by people i felt that i am all alone.

i am not trying to sell some self pity here.

i am not going to go around and suck it all up just cuz some stupid idioms said that " when life gives u lemon, u make lemonade out of it".

i want to. but i think i had enough of lemonade.
i am refusing the lemon now.

thank you for all the juice and the sourness that u have given me.

this is it.

i need some strawberries. or anything sweet.

playing with emotions

i think im emotionally comlicated person.

one minute i was happily studying and revising my japanese.

the next minute, i am all sad and moody.

as i sit here, in from of my laptop who proably hates me too cuz it keeps misbehaving and restart and hang whenever it feels like doing so, im SAD.

ask me why and i really cant answer that.

i tried hard to catch up with my feelings and try to give myself a good solid reason so that i dont feel so dumb for emo-ing here.

Q : What cause Yvonne to be sad?
a) home sick.
b) food sick.
c) love sick.
d) dont know.

A : d) dont know.

i really dont know. *major sigh

ok. i feel really stupid now.

japanese is not as simple as konichiwa.

konichiwa!
hajimemashite!
watashiwa e bon des su.
mackuri dai ga ku no ni nen sei ga se i.
tsumimase, anata ai watashiwa blog des ka?

i wrote a paragraph of crap in japanese. haha!
well if u really wana know what i wrote go google them! haha! for the record, im writing those based on my limited understanding of japanese and my romaji totally kenot pakai wan! so pls dont come and spam me if i write it wrongly or watever la!

ah.....i cant believe that i am actually taking japanese as my elective unit!
i find it fun! like u can go on and on with konichiwa n stuffs like that for real!
i mean taking the unit certainly allows me to harass my friends with my super shallow knowledge of japanese! haha! *this will be fun! =p

anyway its been a crazy week here cuz i have been playing and doing tooo much of groceries! speaking of which i really think all these walking around finding for cheaper stuffs is turning me into an aunty la. =( but what choice do i have? *sobs....FYI, we have roughly 300aud per month to survival as in food,phone & other essential stuffs. ITS NOT ENOUGH! *SOBS

well gotta stop writing now cuz i have to practice my japanese. flunked my quiz today so have to work extra harder for the next quiz! =(

nah..some pics of me la..just in case u miss me. if u dont, there r no obligations to scroll down n see them. or if you wana see how much weight i gained in 3 weeks time feel free to do so!

sydney bridge

opera house! *sings

camwhoring with the teddy biscuits! =p

st andrew's cathedral! =))

being all touristy in the middle of the city!

bah! too lazy to post pics. okthxforreadingbyebye!

oh oh! last before i stop crapping : watashiwa kawaii des ka? ka? ka? HAHAHHAHA *shameless you dont have to answer that. okthanksbubye. *runs away

ai,
e bon!