@#$%^&

im officially piss off right now.

super tu lan! *pulls hair*

i can go around and start cursing like a mad person.

i am THAT angry.

some people are just born brainless!

really duno what they have in their mind!

well i hope they will realize their mistake for playing with fire and they GROW UP.

sien.

pre-flight panic attacks

i cant believe that i am having this pre-flight jitters thingy. =(

i have been waiting and praying for the past 2 and a half years that i can make it through it and secure myself a ticket to Aussie!

now that i am flying like in less than 36hours...im really panicking.

HAIZ! to the max samo!

i cant believe this is happening. my palms are sweaty. my stomach feels like its gona explode anytime due to the heavy butterflies in my stomach...my heart is beating so fast it could jump right out. *somebody come and gimme a slap in my face pls.

i used to think that i will not at any cost be sad or emo bout leaving Malaysia..leaving everybody that is so dear to me for 2 years, leaving everything that i love here, leaving everything that spells C.O.M.F.O.R.T to me.

but here i am now.

feeling lost.

worried.

over-reacting.

i bet wrinkles are mushrooming on my face now. =(

i bet i would cry so badly on the day of my departure that i can flood KLIA. ==''' because i am already missing everybody and everything! *my whole kampung will come and send me off. haha!

my laptop is playing Mylie Cyrus's "The Climb". 0.o
could this be a message by God?
He knows my fear and my anxiety....and telling me that through a song! AMEN!

God indeed is good. =)

p/s : talking craps helps ease my tension. so pls bear with me. *bluek i actually felt much better now! =) oh..and er...i somehow enjoy talking to myself. haha! =p

bye bye black!

BEFORE

as promised...a pic of my AFTER hair!

okla..its not like this now. T.T
oh. in case u didn't notice...i also cut my hair shorter. =p
i have no idea how the hair stylist works his magic with my hair man! *depressed
I.ABSOLUTELY.LOVE.THE.WAY.HE.BLOWS.MY.HAIR! =)))

BUT
i duno how to blow till my hair looks so chio! *sobs

haiz.

MUST LEARN! *hopeful look

okla..maybe some of u would say that i dun look any different...cuz the colour is really really super close with my natural colour. =p
cuz i am such a coward that i do not want to have super bright coloured hair.
somehow..i think this has got to do ALOT with the fact that i am a future teacher to be and i (people) stereotyped that teacher should not be blondies! >.<
have to admit, im super afraid of others judging me. haiz.
but people judge people all the time. sad but true. =(

bye bye black! teehee~

sawadika....

i just got back from bangkok like 2 days ago and i am finding myself missing bangkok so much!

i love their food..tomyum..tonyum kung...the fruits stalls where u can get fruits like anytime anywhere..fruit juices..coconut...and most importantly platinum mall where my sis and i went crazy shopping there. like O.M.GOSH! i have never shop till so crazy before..seriously. im really happy with what i bought but i am also regretting something. regretting not buying more. hahaha! sigh. i will definitely go back bangkok! precisely platinum mall. *cough* anyway this is just a short post because my bangkok pics r with my sis...i will blog a proper blog when i got the pics!
again.....I HEART BANGKOK! =P

in the mean time..i need to really pamper myself more. because i discovered that i have like gazillions of white heads and black heads on my face. sad. and i have like lotsa pimples. even worse. lotsa scars....*emo* so i really need to start taking care of my skin lah..if not....i dun think i will ever forgive myself for not taking care of my once oh-so-smooth skin. haiz. i wish i can turn back time. why....WHY does human only learn from their mistake...why cant we foresee things and learn not to take things for granted? okla...whats done is done. no use crying over spilled milk. i see others with worse skin and i should be thankful liao for my skin..n start caring it liao! *determined*

ohh...my friend is getting married this saturday! and i am sooo excited! =) so gotta make sure no giant zits have chance to spring on my face! teehee~

im off to do a mask! =p

have a great day peeps!

xoxo,
von

reasons to blog

i am "eat-full-nothing-better-to-do" mood now..so imma just makea quick update to kill my time! haha. life at home is good but when nobody is around. time passes by really slow............................T.T

okie dokie! so here goes my reasons to blog!

1) sense of POWER! *muahahha*
i need somewhere where i am in charge of is. like im the ladyboss! *happy* can crap whatever i want to! well..i know i am too much of a talker to some people..so instead of bugging ppl all the time to talk to me..or listen to in ( in most cases! =p ) well,why not put my thoughts and feelings into words. it sometimes feels so good because i think im doing myself and others a major favour. haha! me, because i get to expressed myself with full freedom! and i save others from any torment they may have to go through because i can be a very naggy person. =p

2) SHARING is caring! *lame.i know.*
i figure that since i will be going to aussie real soon * keeping my fingers crossed n hopes that everything goes smooth! God bless me!* i find that keeping a blog may be good for some ppl who might miss me! *cough* not trying to say that many ppl are interested in what i do with my life but i feel keeping a blog might be good that i ppl can see me! and be reminded of me! =) going abroad will be a great experience and there will be lotsa interesting things that i wana share with others..so having blog means i can blog bout them..and ppl come, read and they noned to ask me again right? den i dun have to repeat myself so many times. ooh..suddenly feel so clever. *pats myself on back!* haha! =p

3 ) for ME! =)
i am a strong believer that when you are having the mood of an angry lion or feeling as blue-est as u can due to a major PMS or watever other extreme moods or feelings...u say things that u will definitely regret ltr on! which yours truly is majorly guilty of..*sigh*
i am bad tempered. i know. and my tears flow like the Nigeria Falls when my crying button is hit! so i know this makes me looks like an angry + irrational +childish person. but im learning to grow up and keep praying that one day..i will be able to have more self control over myself. so i believe this blog of mine could be a great place for me to sit down and reflect on myself when times like this come. to just sit..and think...and blog whats in my heart! its not called "tete-a-tete" for no reason. fyi, tete-a-tete means to talk heart to heart! =)

4) the utmost license to CAMWHORE! *clicksclicks*
i love photography! or rather i love to take pics of myself.me. and i! =p haha! *camwhores* i just love taking pics although sadly...i am not veyr photogenic but those pics serve as a remembrance of what i did,where.and when. =) and camwhoring is like sooo allowed when you have a blog! =p dun believe me..go see out of 10 women bloggers..which one does not post pics of themselves ha? *shifty eyes* so..yeah..imma get the license to camwhore more and post them up without feeling weird unless some of you comments that you wana vomit seeing my pics which i pray not to happen and if it really happens i will just say "like i care" because its my blog and if you happen to see me and vomit..consider that is a good act on my side to help ur indigestion problem! HAHA! =p


to end my post for today with.......

this

and this

and this too


I AM SO IN LOVE WITH THIS NEW LICENSE! * skip & do chicken dance*
even happier than when i first got my driving licence. =='''
im vain.but not shallow. =p

okla. i think dats enough of vomiting already. dowan to torture u all samo la! see..im quite a considerate person right? *im swt-ing against myself and amazed at my own thick-face-ness! lmao*

tata! have a great day everyone! God bless! =)

xoxo,
von